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[May. 9th, 2008|06:20 pm] |
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God! I've been finding it really hard to do shit lately. I constantly find myself skipping class, the gym, postponing homework, not doing my chores etc. Most of the time I'll be like "blehhh I'm too lazy, I'll just play Pokemon instead". I know no good can come out of this much lazyness but I just can't find a way to stop it. Truth is it takes a lot of strength from me to even complete my daily routine which makes me feel guilty and terrible at the end of the day when I'm in bed and I think of everything I should've done during the day but didn't. And I'm not even depressed or anything, just really reallllyyyyy lazy. Probably just a major lack of motivation?
Has this ever happened to anyone? How can I overcome it? Advice needed badly :-! |
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[Apr. 26th, 2008|04:13 pm] |
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| | Kirk Franklin - Declaration | ] |
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| Such a great month! |
[Apr. 13th, 2008|03:24 pm] |
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| | Usher - Love In This Club | ] |
This has been such an amazing month! I just found out last week that they're upgrading my scholarship to an approximate of $1000 to spend it ALL on myself (since I already got the tuition for next semester covered). I plan to take my family out to dinner or something nice and buy new clothes since my wardrobe could use an upgrade.I'm also gonna get music because I haven't (legally) gotten any new music this year besides Kylie's "X". Whoever said money can't buy happiness just didn't know where to buy it!
Last night I went to Juan's birthday party. It was the first get-together after that majorly awkward occasion when Brandt found out I'm gay. I was sorta afraid since Brandt is very very homophobic but he seemed to take it well since he never brought it up and treated me just like always.
Seriously such a great month, still, sometimes I just can't help but feel a little down and lonely. I guess I just need a fucking boyfriend, badly. |
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[Mar. 24th, 2008|05:11 pm] |
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| | Ne-Yo - Go On Girl | ] |
Wow! Can't believe the 1st quarter of the year is almost over!
Winter just finished and oddly enough, it just started getting cold here after a very warm and sunny winter. I'm still on spring break doing absolutely nothing! It sucks that in one week I have to go back to the same old routine but it's comforting to know I'm getting closer and closer to my goal which is to finish college!
It's also comforting that Ashanti is back!!! Her latest masterpiece The Way That I Love You took a while to grow on me but now I can't get enough of it.
And on a completely unrelated note, I present you the WTF moment of the decade: 2 days ago I went on a date with some dude to Starbucks and after a while the conversation got steamy so we decided to take it to a hotel room. When we got there, they said they can't rent rooms to 2 males!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously...I knew Mexico was a homophobic country but I never truly realized the extent of this homophobia until this happened. Fucking third world country. |
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[Mar. 19th, 2008|11:18 pm] |
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| | El Roockie - Sigue Bailando mi Amor | ] |
So it's spring break and apparently it's gonna be a very calm one. I've been doing absolutely nothing other than playing Pokemon, listening to music and watching TV. Normally I'd have plans with friends but lately we've all been distant from each other. Honestly I'm not even interested in keeping in touch, maybe we've all mutually grown tired of each other and stopped caring? Whatever the case, it's gonna be me myself and I for the next 2 weeks and my sole activity will basically be hitting the gym even though I can't fucking control my eating habits and as much as I'm exercising, I'm not really seeing any results lately. I haven't smoked in 2 days (something I had never accomplished since I started smoking) which proves I'm strong enough to achieve any goals I set for myself, but seriously I keep asking myself why even bother quitting?
It feels like everything I do lately doesn't really have a purpose since I'm not really doing anything productive with my life and, in the end, I'm not genuinely happy. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I just stayed in my room forever. Would it make any difference at all? Blehhh, I just wish I had some form of motivation to keep going everyday -_- |
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[Mar. 5th, 2008|06:30 pm] |
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Name a song that:
01. Reminds you of an ex-lover: LL Cool J - "Hush"
02. Reminds you of an ex-friend: Gwen Stefani - "Early Winter"
03. Reminds you of your childhood: 4 Non Blondes - "What's Up"
04. Makes you cry: Natasha Bedingfield - "Soulmate"
05. Makes you laugh: Soulja Boy - "Yahhh!"
06. Makes you wanna dance: Kat DeLuna - "Whine Up"
07. Reminds you of your love interest: Aly & AJ - "Potential Break-Up Song"
08. Makes you very, very sleepy: Evanescence - "Good Enough"
09. You wish you wrote: Darren Hayes - "Unlovable"
10. You wish had been written for you: 112 - "Nowhere"
11. Fills you with complete joy: Wayne Wonder - "No Letting Go"
13. You want to get married to: Jesse McCartney - "Because You Live"
14. You want played at your funeral: No Doubt - "Bathwater"
15. Makes you want to mosh/slam dance: Avenged Sevenfold - "Bat Country"
16. Sums up your teenage years: Kylie Minogue - "Can't Get You Out of my Head"
17. You used to hate but now love: Britney Spears - "Piece Of Me"
18. You like to wake up to: Lil' Mama - "Lip Gloss"
19. You like out of your parent's record collection: Ricky Martin - "Pegate"
20. Your parents like out of your collection: Nigga - "Te Quiero"
21. You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: Blake Lewis - "Surrender"
22. Makes you think of someone who died: ---
23. You love the video more than the tune: Justin Timberlake - "Cry me a River"
24. Reminds you of your first crush: "Dido - Here With Me"
25. You love which is from one of your favorite movies: B2K - "Badaboom"
26. Makes you think of the moon: Brandy - Full Moon
27. Makes you think of last summer:Paula DeAnda - "Easy"
28. Makes you think of being alone: Avril Lavigne - "Nobody's Home"
29. You love to hear at clubs: Enur Feat. Natasja - "Calabria 2007"
30. You're Listening To Right Now: Los Super Reyes - "Serenata" |
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| LFR |
[Mar. 4th, 2008|11:10 am] |
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| | Mr. President - Coco Jamboo | ] |
Sorry about the last entry, I just freaked out for a moment but it wasn't that big of a deal and I'm cool now :)
So let's talk about music! All I've been listening lately is Alicia Keys, Craig David and Kylie Minogue's latest albums.
Alicia Keys' "As I Am" is a very solid, soulful album that truly speaks to your heart. You can easily relate to the songs and you can actually feel Alicia's emotions through her voice. The highlight of the album for me is "Lesson Learned" with John Mayer.
Craig David's "Trust Me" is the most diverse album of his entire career. He has slow, midtempo and upbeat songs with a wide lyrical variety ranging from break-up songs to songs about being stuck home on a friday night. The higlight of this album is by far "Friday Night"
Kylie Minogue's "X" is the perfect comeback album for this incredibly amazing tramp. It resembles "Body Language" in that they both have an 80s feel to it, but I'd personally choose "X" over BL any day. It's the album you'd like to listen when you want to feel good. The highlight is "Speakerphone"
And now let's discuss singles! The latin single of the moment is without a doubt "Serenata" by Los Super Reyes. I don't know if they're better than the Kumbia All Starz as a whole, but "Serenata" definitely tops anything KAS have ever done.
And if you wanna talk guilty pleasures, Britney Spears' "Piece Of Me" is your song of choice! It's soo incredibly addictive and mesmerizing that it makes you wonder how such a messed-up person came up with it.
But my favorite song at the moment definitely has to be either "Tattoo" or "No Air", both by Jordin Sparks. There's just something about them...damn! Of course we can't leave out Bow Wow & Omarion's "Girlfriend" and "Hey Baby", both catchy as fuck. I think Bow Wow and Omarion make such a great team and they blend together sooo well.
What has everyone been listening to lately? I wanna know!!! |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2008|04:21 pm] |
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| | Tank - I Love U | ] |
It's time for random things I hate!
- I hate waiting 19 hours
- I hate when you know someone who can change your future but you find out they might be lying
- I hate uncertainty and anxiety
- I hate sweating cold
- I hate that after being completely alright for about 18 months, I might become depressed again
What I do love though, is cryptic entries like this one :) |
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| Worst dream ever! |
[Feb. 9th, 2008|08:47 pm] |
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| | Jordin Sparks - Tattoo | ] |
So last night I had the worst nightmare of all time. It was about my mom dying...well more like the aftermath of my mom's death since in the dream it was never revealed how or why she died.
It was soo horrible, in the dream I was feeling soo much pain because I would never see her again. At one point it got sooo vivid that I remember crying in the dream and then waking up in tears.
Sometimes I take my mom for granted or do things that she doesn't deserve, like ignoring her or being mean to her or yelling at her, but seriously this dream made me appreciate her a lot more and realize how unfair I can be to her sometimes. She deserves to be treated better and that's what I'm gonna do from now on before it's too late and I end up regretting it for the rest of my life. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2008|06:18 pm] |
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| | Sammie - Heavenly | ] |
So I think it's time for an alias change. Randy just doesn't suit me anymore. I think I'm more of a Rico or a Terrell or even a Todd. |
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[Jan. 20th, 2008|01:19 pm] |
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| | Craig David - She's on Fire | ] |
(Grammar might be a bit off since i'm tired, hungry and kinda hungover)
JESUS FUCK! I haven't updated in decades but today I remembered I had this and decided to post basically just to say hi to everyone.
I've changed a lot as a person since the last update. I'm no longer the pessimistic depressive whiny cunt I was once. I learned to not take things too seriously and don't make a big deal out of everything and it worked out just fine! I'm very happy at this moment in my life and I have been for a while now. Sure, I still have some issues and bad days like everyone does but now I deal with them with a much more optimistic approach instead of letting it get me down. I've made tons of new friends, joined the local gym, got a scholarship because of my good grades, got a great job where I basically get paid to do nothing lmao, and I'm gonna try to get my american visa this year so I can get out of Mexico as soon as I finish college. Seriously I've changed soo much you wouldn't even recognize me anymore.
What has everyone been up to in the past six months?! I wanna know!!! |
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| favorite songs of May |
[Jun. 2nd, 2007|05:39 pm] |
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| | Ne-Yo - Because of You | ] |
1. T-Pain ft Yung Joc - Buy U a Drank (Shawty Snappin')
2. Vanessa Hudgens - Say OK
3. Rihanna ft Jay-Z - Umbrella
4. Linkin Park - What I've Done
5. Northern State - Better Already |
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[May. 15th, 2007|08:29 am] |
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| | Linkin Park - What I've Done | ] |
For the past 6 years I've made people believe I hate Linkin Park with a burning passion but I think it's time to come clean and admit they're not that bad. Sure they have shitty songs like Breaking The Habit, One Step Closer and Papercut, but the majority of their songs are actually good :-! I don't know why I kept up with this lie for sooo long but yeah there you go :-x |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2007|10:20 am] |
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| | Destiny's Child - Cater 2 U | ] |
So I had class at 9AM but I slept in and now I feel guilty. It's not like I missed anything important or relevant. In fact I can borrow someone's notes and catch up with no problem. Except I feel extremely guilty that I missed the fuckin class. I'm such a fuckin nerd. |
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| Goodbye LJ |
[Jul. 3rd, 2006|06:41 pm] |
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| | XXXtina Aguilera - Ain't No Other Man | ] |
For the past 3 years I've updated this LJ on a regular basis, usually with details about my (boring) life. Lately, i know it seemed like i made entries here to:
a) get attention
b) get sympathy
c) have people feel sorry for me
None of those are the actual reasons why i post here, the actual reason for posting here was just to let everything out, kinda like a catharsis.
So i decided I no longer will put my business out there for everyone to read since
a) Some of you are tired of my negativeness
b) Some of you don't even care
c) Some of you get worried when you read these entries and it's not fair
Like i said, the only reason for posting here was because it made me feel better letting stuff out and since I definitely want to still have that, I created another LJ account for that purpose alone: talk about ANYTHING i want. I'm the only person who knows about that account, you know, kinda like an actual journal that nobody but the owner reads, don't bother asking for it cause I won't give it to you.
If i ever decide to update this again, it will probably be just random stuff: songs, lyrics, pictures, surveys etc. but honestly I doubt i'll keep this active, i'll probably only use it to read and comment on my friends' journals since I definitely want to keep reading their journals.
Thanks everyone who bothered reading this for 3 years, I seriously appreciate it. |
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