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[Jun. 12th, 2009|05:37 pm] |
Entertainment
Eww! I never imagined life without internet and videogames would be soo boring. Whenever I'm at home I have the hardest time finding entertaining things to do. Most of the time I'll read a magazine or listen to music but there are times when even that gets boring. I swear the FIRST thing I'm gonna get as soon as I get my first paycheck is a COMPUTER followed by a PLAYSTATION 3 so I can finish playing fucking Final Fantasy 12 and get prepared for Final Fantasy 13 next year!
Duranguense
So there's a duranguense slump, there are roughly 3 good duranguense songs out right now but DAMN they're all the super shit: Almas Gemelas by El Trono de Mexico, Fue Su Amor by Alacranes Musical and No Hieras mi Vida by La Apuesta. I kinda like it that way: I prefer few amazing duranguense songs than a lot of mediocre ones.
Reggaeton
Wisin y Yandel keep dissapointing more and more everytime, I'm seriously considering giving completely up on them after listening to their latest piece of shit "Abusadora".
I've still to hear Sexy Robotica but if it's as shitty as Virtual Diva then I'll be done with Don Omar as well. But not everything is shitty in this department: Alexis y Fido and Trebol Clan make me tingle with excitement: "Ojos Que No Ven" keeps growing on me everyday even though it's like 4 months old, and "Me Hipnotizas" might just be my #1 song of the year!!!
Friends
UGH! I'll just say that I need an extreme makeover in this department. I'm soo tired of each and every one of my friends. UGH! Can I please get a completely new set of friends?
Love
Love? What's that? I haven't had any form of relationship in the past 9 months, only boring or annoying dates. It doesn't help that EVERYONE I'm attracted to, is not attracted to me; and EVERYONE that is attracted to me turns out to be a queeny flaming diva or physically unattractive asshole. Eww!
Work
My internship ends in 18 days!!! and with that, my college experience also ends. They told me at UAEM that I'm gonna get hired the day after I complete my internship so basically I'm literally getting a job right after I graduate. No unemployment for me woo! The only bad thing is that there's this asshole that annoys me SOOO much! He always brags about how many girls he fucks or about how his superiors complimented him. UGH! Most of the times he'll start talking and I'll just nod from time to time but on the inside I'm like "please drop dead". Other than that, work is the only place where I actually feel like I fit in. My coworkers are sooo cool and the security guy is SOOOOO hot! I wish I could spend all day at work!
Clubbing
Boring boring boring. My favorite club is starting to whore out the same songs and it's getting annoying. Every new club that's opened this year is just more of the same. I need a new club with a different concept instead of just copying the same formula that only appeals to mid and upper class clubbers. I'm going to this new club tonight but from what I've heard it's just a carbon copy of other clubs, they better play some reggaeton/duranguense and there better be hot people so I don't feel like my night was completely wasted. UGH! If only I wasn't soo addicted to clubbing...
So um yeah I don't think I need to explain further to convince anyone that my life is VERY annoying at the moment, and it has been that way for a while now. By now I'm 100% sure that things will only get better if/when I get my FRESH START |
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[Jun. 9th, 2009|05:39 pm] |
I was perfectly happy until my Playstation 2 broke last week. Can somebody give me one so I can finish playing Final Fantasy 12?! It would make my life THAT much better! |
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|12:23 pm] |
EWWW! Virtual Diva is growing on me, someone plz shoot me? |
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[May. 12th, 2009|12:04 pm] |
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So the world has been on edge for the past few weeks because of this flu and naturally being a citizen of the country where it originated, it affected my life to some extent. I'll try to summarize the events during the nation-wide shutdown from my point of view.
It all started on Friday April 22nd when I was at my internship and my coworkers were talking about people in Mexico City being affected by some flu. I didn't pay much attention to it, I thought it was only a common flu outbreak.
By Sunday April 24th it was everywhere on the news and people around me started to panic. I kept thinking it wasn't that big of a deal.
On Tuesday April 26th it was official: this new flu became an epidemic and the mexican government started advising people to stay home. It wasn't long until the streets started to look ominously empty, and the few people you saw outdoors were mostly wearing those surgical mask thingies. It was just soo surreal! It's like you only see these things in movies or somewhere very far from you. You never imagine something like this could happen where you live, specially when you're used to seeing the city soo alive day and night. The fact that it became dead overnight was pretty frightening I must admit.
Things really hit the fan for me on Wednesday April 27th when on my way to internship I walked by classroom C9 early in the morning. One hour later there were people from health services saying there was a confirmed case who indeed was in classroom C9. They isolated everyone who might have been in contact with him for 6 hours, including me. Around that same time the government announced that all schools were to remain closed until May 11th and all restaurants, clubs, churches and pretty much all public places...and I was isolated. An hour later a strong earthquake was felt and well with all of this piling up I obviously panicked to the point where I almost had an anxiety attack. I was ordered to stay home for the next 48 hours in case I was indeed infected with the flu, they said if I don't show symptoms in the next 48 hours I'm good.
Thankfully I wasn't infected and everything went back to normal in the following days. Of course the country was still shutdown and there was absolutely nothing to do. No clubs, no cafes, no nothing, but the forced vacation was more than nice. Still, I feel like it was all a story someone told me, all very surreal. Now with shutdown being lifted yesterday, things are surely going back to normal in the next days, or so I hope, since this thing keeps spreading and it's pretty much worldwide now.
The one thing that makes me sick is the people that claim this was all made up. EWW! Maybe they need to be isolated for 48 hours to know this crap is real. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2009|05:24 pm] |
So let's talk about music!
First let's talk about albums! I've been playing the shit out of Raphael Saadiq lately. His latest album The Way I See It is just amazing! He managed to take the 60s motown sound and make something very intriguing of it. The higlights of the album are 100 Yard Dash and Big Easy.
In the reggaeton department, Alexis y Fido and Tito El Bambino are fucking fire with their latest albums Down to Earth and El Patron respectively. I hate the eurodance/reggaeton hybrid shit that's been coming out lately but Alexis y Fido managed to make some hybrid songs and get away with it. As for Tito el Bambino, his album is just soo urban and amazing, specially the masterpiece that is his first single Under.
I've also been whoring the hell out of Trebol Clan even though their album came out last year.
Now let's talk about dissapointments. Wisin y Yandel and their shitty latest single Mujeres In The Club featuring 50 Cent is just soo boring, generic and just plain horrendous. How did they go from being the best reggaeton artist to...this?
Also Ciara's latest piece of shit Love Sex Magic is just soo damn annoying! I used to be a big fan of her but she seriously lost a whole bunch of points with this garbage.
And last but by no means less shitty, we have Don Omar and his utter piece of crap Virtual Diva. It's soo fucking boring that even the most hardcore fan would fall asleep to it. Nothing happens in the entire song and I just don't get why he released that shit as first single.
And finally I'll list my favorite singles at the moment:
- Alexis y Fido - La Cama (Part 2)
- Eminem - We Made You
- Calle 13 - Electro Movimiento
- Cartel de Santa - Hay Mamita
- Katy Perry - Thinking of You (sort of a guilty pleasure but not really)
- Raphael Saadiq - 100 Yard Dash
- Kudai - Morir de Amor
- Tito El Bambino - Under
- Bow Wow ft Johnta Austin - You Can Get it All
- Chrisette Michelle - Epiphany
- Grupo Montez de Durango - Espero
- K'Jon - On The Ocean
Overall I'm just not too into mainstream music anymore, could it be because most mainstream music completely sucks these days or maybe because I became one of those elitists that only listen to obscure stuff? Eww! I hope it's the first choice. |
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[Mar. 28th, 2009|05:29 pm] |
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So Mini-Alexa still remains, mostly because my computer is broken and I have very limited internet access at the moment. No MSN or AIM! I still haven't figured out if I hate my friends or not, so until I do, I'm gonna stay M.I.A.
Work is cool, and my internship is even cooler. I became friends with everyone at the office and I gave everyone drag queen names, they're soo popular! Everyone addresses each other by their drag queen name. I got "Natasha" which isn't too queenish so it's all good I think. I also became friends with my boss and we go play pool every thursday and just gossip about the other interns and talk shit behind their backs lfr! Soo fun. I've been pretty much guaranteed a job there once the internship ends which is awesome because I'd be paid twice as much as the average newly graduate.
Been dating a couple guys but again I don't see myself being officially with any of them. One lives in another state, another revolves in a completely different social circle than mine, and the other isn't too...physically attractive (but if I were to officially be with someone, it would be the last one). I don't know, I guess I'll go with the flow and see where things go.
So all in all, things aren't really bad lately, but they will be better once I graduate and start making money. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2009|03:46 pm] |
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WHOA! I had a GOOD date today! Last time I had a good date was 6 months ago! See? I told you. Mini-Alexa does wonders every single time! <333 |
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| UGH! |
[Feb. 25th, 2009|10:01 pm] |
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| | Khriz y Angel - No Me Conoces | ] |
Seriously why do people suck sooo much?! It's not even funny anymore and it's starting to really wear me down. I know I sound like a Good Charlotte song but I fucking swear it's me against the world lately, and I don't know how long I'm gonna be able to keep up with it. I thought 2009 would be a great year but so far it's been the exact opposite. What am I doing wrong? Sometimes I wanna just give in and be like them, but that would just be the easy way out and I've never been a fan of doing things that way, so I'm just gonna stay strong and STAY TRUE TO MYSELF. Right now the satisfaction of knowing I'm still me after everything that's happened is the only thing I have to keep me going everyday.
EDIT: Actually you know what? I've been postponing mini-alexa for too long but it seems like it's the only viable option to get out of this slump. Mini-alexa always provides an effective way to run away from problems and, in most cases, solve them. Plus, what else do I really need besides clubbing on weekends? It's official, mini-alexa begins tomorrow! |
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[Feb. 18th, 2009|11:18 pm] |
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So I really wanna give Ke something interesting to read but truth is I have absolutely nothing new to update about! My internship is cool but pretty much a giant routine, my friends continue to annoy me, my dating slump remains, I'm still a club whore and I still feel like I don't belong anywhere. The only new thing would be that I started going to the gym again about 2 weeks ago and well that's it. I swear sometimes I feel like watching a fish tank for 47 consecutive hours is a lot more fun than my life. Can I plz go back to late 2004/early 2005 where my life was eventful and I was happy? |
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[Jan. 30th, 2009|07:00 pm] |
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| | Nigga - Dime Si Te Vas Con El | ] |
I need to resist the urge to go clubbing this weekend with the homez, which is by far the hardest thing I've had to do in a while considering I've been a major club whore lately. Being in debt totally sucks ass!
EDIT: Nevermind that, my friends didn't even have to try too hard to convince me. I'm soo fucking weak when it comes to clubbing. They better play that new TITO EL BAMBINO "Under" or at least the latest KHRIZ Y ANGEL "Na De Na" I'm soo tired of this fucking club always being late with reggaeton and playing only the old stuff like "Te Quiero", "Escapate", "Pose", "Perdoname", "5 Letras", "Siguelo" etc. |
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[Jan. 29th, 2009|07:57 pm] |
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Wow, long time since my last update. Reading my last 10-15 entries made me notice I've been very pessimistic the past few months. Thankfully that ended as soon as 2009 started. I have a lot of goals to accomplish this year and I believe with all my heart that this year will be a turning point in my life. I mean I'm graduating in about 6 months!!! That's such an accomplishment specially since dropping out crossed my mind on numerous occasions and I struggled with financial issues through most of the 5 years college lasted.
I'm gonna be thrown into the real world as soon as I graduate, but I'm not only prepared for that, I'm also very excited!
Other than the sudden rush of optimism, my life has been very boring and annoying lately. I'm still on winter break which is cool because I get to refill my energy and stamina, but I'm doing absolutely nothing! and everything is one giant routine. I don't hang out with friends (they annoy me lately), I don't go to the gym (I'm majorly lacking motivation), I don't go to parties or the club (I need to save money to get out of debt), I haven't been involved with anyone in like 6 months (every fucking homo I meet is either not my type or not interested in me) etc., but I have faith all this will end as soon as the semester starts!
Ohh and why are Khriz Y Angel sooo fuckin amazing?! I've been listening to their latest album Showtime eveyday since last June and I'm still not tired of it!!! Fuck Wisin y Yandel and their eurodance shit, I have a new favorite artist! Khriz y Angel FTW!!! |
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[Nov. 1st, 2008|11:06 pm] |
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FUCK! I really really really really REALLY wanted to move to Cali. Can I please get something right for once in my life? |
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[Oct. 26th, 2008|01:08 pm] |
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| | Keyshia Cole - Heaven Sent | ] |
So apparently the best time to write entries here is the day after clubbing haha and today is no exception!
I can't get myself to talk to guys. If someone makes the first move everything is completely fine: I'll talk fluently and I won't get nervous whatsoever, but when it comes to me making the first move I'll get completely paralyzed that I can't even say "hey what's up" to the person. It's not even the fear of rejection because I've been rejected a few times before and it doesn't really feel THAT bad for it to be a hinderance. It's also not about lack of confidence because my self-esteem right now is at a healthy level, or so I think. I keep trying to find out what could possibly be the reason for me to be SOO afraid to make the first move but none of the reasons I come up with are valid enough, yet I still can't get myself to overcome that fear...maybe I just like my comfort zone too much?
I know that life is for the taking so I better wise up and take it quick, because it is short and I'm not getting any younger so I'm making a promise here that next time I spot a guy I like, I'm gonna approach him! I'll tell you how it went lol.
In other news, tomorrow is the decisive day: the day where it will be decided if I'm moving to Cali next year or not aka I'm gonna know tomorrow if I got the scholarship or not. It's scary that my entire future will be decided in just a few hours, but I'm pretty optimistic this time everything will work out my way, after all, I don't have another choice but to be optimistic, do I? |
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[Oct. 19th, 2008|10:59 pm] |
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| | Khriz y Angel - Que Nos Vean | ] |
It's not that I feel lonely. No. I think the real problem is that I feel like I don't belong anywhere.
I'm just the nice guy that talks to everyone yet somehow can't really connect with anyone due to lack of common interests and/or unability to relate to peers. I've never had a true best friend, you know the kind of friend you do everything with and tell everything to. I've never belonged to a group where I can say "yeah I fit in here" (well I did in 11th grade but that's a different story).
I've always had weak family bonds and while I know my family cares about me (and I care about them just as much) I just have the feeling that I was switched at birth and my family should be another one. I'm not close to any relative like most people are. You know everyone has a favorite sibling or cousin or uncle or aunt or parent. I don't.
I've never had a boyfriend that truly cares about me. My first boyfriend cheated on me, my second boyfriend was a mistake in more than one sense, and my third boyfriend...well I won't even get into that.
I constantly feel like my entire social circle is too average and ordinary for me to even bother building ties with others and I honestly feel like I should start from scratch and move on to an entirely new and different environment.
I don't know my place in this world and I never have, but I believe with all my heart that I'll find it once I move to Cali. But with me probably not getting my scholarship, and with the United States under crisis, moving to Cali seems more and more like a pipe dream with each day that goes by. |
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[Oct. 12th, 2008|04:45 pm] |
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| | Keyshia Cole - Losing You (Feat. Anthony Hamilton) | ] |
OK so my boss is a total cunt. She keeps postponing my paycheck without even letting me know. I mean I can understand she's going through serious financial and legal issues right now, and I really wouldn't mind waiting a couple more days to get paid if the fucking cunt told me as a fucking courtesy that my paycheck will be delayed, BUT NO, she just "mysteriously" dissapears on pay day and I have to come back later during the week to get paid. This is the 3rd time she does it and it's really getting on my nerves, I mean I work out of necessity (sp?) not out of boredom. I feel that this thing she does is soo unprofessional that I want to quit, but right now I really can't afford to lose this income. UGH. I totally and completely hate being a grown-up. Can I go back to like high school please? 11th grade if possible. |
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| Happier days! |
[Oct. 9th, 2008|11:00 pm] |
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| | Bow Wow & Omarion - Girlfriend | ] |
I'm bored, and I'm really nostalgic about the past so I made this list of times in my life where I was happier, sue me!
( Read more... )
Whew! I feel SO MUCH better now! |
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[Sep. 28th, 2008|04:50 pm] |
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| | Dave Hollister - Never Gonna Change | ] |
There are times when I look at myself in the mirror and I don't even know the person staring back at me anymore. I have changed so much for the worse in the past few months that I think I'm losing my very essence only to adjust to the environment and circumstances.
But then I meet mexicano_moreno123 or go to Brown Pride Forums or listen to Dave Hollister's Never Gonna Change and I'm reminded that I need to stay true to myself and the rest of the world can either hate it or love it! |
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| Spic |
[Sep. 20th, 2008|05:40 pm] |
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| | Mariah Carey - I'll Be Lovin U Long Time | ] |
I've decided: I'm gonna talk more like an actual fucking spic from now on! |
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[Sep. 19th, 2008|11:07 pm] |
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| | Brandy - Right Here (Departed) | ] |
So I applied for a scholarship today and they'll tell me in October if I'll get it. This is only the first step to get out of this damn country. IF I get the scholarship (emphasis on IF) then I can apply for a visa in November, and if I get the visa I'll only have to focus in saving money to move out as soon as I graduate. It's gonna be a long and very difficult process but I believe with all my heart that in the end it will all be worth it.
I'm basically taking a break from every form of social life I have (except clubbing with my buddy Alex) which means no phone, no AIM and most importantly no MSN. I don't wanna deal with people right now. People can be such assholes sometimes and apparently running away is the only thing I'm good at.
But it was a very long exhausting week so right now all I care is I'm getting my very much needed sleep! |
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[Sep. 14th, 2008|03:14 pm] |
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| | Field Mob - Sick Of Being Lonely | ] |
I think I need a fresh start. I've always wanted to move to California and I'm gonna try my hardest to make it happen by next year after I graduate. By that time I won't have any more ties to Mexico. I mean I don't have any true friends here, maybe just one and even that's debatable. As for my family I kinda feel like I've become more of a burden than an asset. My parents get really upset everytime I go to the club and come home until 8am and with the whole coming out issue I think they're dissapointed in me. Not that homosexuality is something to be dissapointed but they were raised to believe that so I think everyone will be better off if I leave. The only thing that keeps me in Mexico right now is college so after graduation seems like the perfect moment to get a clean slate, maybe then I'll finally feel like I belong somewhere...and if I don't, I can always go back! I'm trying not to think that far ahead because I don't wanna add uncertainty to my list of worries. I'm enough of a mess as I am right now!
But man! Last night was the most fun I've had in months. There's this new club in a neighboring town which is amazingly cool. They're actually up to date with music and have plenty of variety (unlike all the other clubs I go to). But the thing I liked the most was the people! it was full of real down to earth guys (some even dressed as reggaetoneros!!!) and not just the queeny flaming divas that are sooo common in the gay community. Some strangers would even say hi and small talk to you! I guess it was just the small-town hospitality but it was such a breath of fresh air to be in a place full of warm, non-elitist people. Needless to say it's officially become my favorite club and I can't wait to go back next week even though I promised myself my club-whore spree would stop! |
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[Aug. 31st, 2008|05:46 pm] |
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I can't do this. How did I get to this point? It's sooo painful to wake up every morning and realize every form of motivation I once had is now gone. I honestly can't think of a single person I can turn to for sympathy or comfort. My family doesn't accept me for who I am and my friends are either just looking out for themselves or have their own drama to deal with. No one to turn to. Problems are at an all time high in my life: I still have financial issues, I'm overwhelmed by the uncertainty of my future, my school situation is stressful to say the least. I feel exhausted, lost, abandoned, lonely, stressed and hopeless. I can't do this.
I am not okay, but if you ask me I'll probably deny it. |
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| Open letter to Damian Estrada |
[Aug. 22nd, 2008|06:48 pm] |
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| | Anthony Hamilton - I'm a Mess | ] |
So I stole the idea of making a letter from a friend of mine, somehow I need to sort out all my feelings so my head can stop being a damn mess.
( Open letter to Damian Estrada )
To send it or not to send it...that's the dilemma. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2008|12:18 am] |
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I feel sooo stupid for believing everything he said. And the worst part is I think this one is gonna be hard to get over. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2008|03:40 pm] |
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| The drama will not last forever! |
[Aug. 12th, 2008|06:59 pm] |
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| | Mary J. Blige - Stay Down | ] |
So I came out to my mom about 2 weeks ago. She reacted exactly how I expected her to react. It could've been worse I guess, at least there was no yelling or crying which, knowing my mother, is saying a lot. Still there are times when she randomly makes a comment like "I think you're really not gay" or "Maybe it's just a temporary phase". She even asked me to see a therapist and/or a priest, I hope she eventually understands it cannot be "cured". What comforts me is that she said she doesn't approve but she won't turn her back on me either so I guess it's not all bad.
And when it comes to my boyfriend I seem to be making past mistakes all over again. One would think I've learned from past relationships what NOT to do but apparently I'm bound to screw things up over and over again. I only wish I had not fallen in love so fast and so hard.
But I only need to survive the rest of the week. After that everything will slowly but surely go back to normal. Or so I hope. |
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[Jul. 25th, 2008|10:52 am] |
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| | The Last Goodnight - This is The Sound | ] |
So, yesterday there was a thunderstorm that fried my computer, TV and stereo. Seriously at this point this summer cannot get any worse. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 18th, 2008|03:18 pm] |
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| | Ashanti - Body On Me | ] |
So I really can't stand the situation at home anymore. My mom questions every fucking decision I make and she's more involved in my life than is healthy, she always thinks I'm lying to her when I really haven't given her any reasons to doubt my word. She also has the dumbest rules of all time! I can't have friends over anymore and I can't be in MY OWN FUCKING ROOM for long periods of time. Seriously it's beyond ridiculous.
I think it might be time to consider moving out but I'm not sure if I'll be able to sustain myself financially. Maybe getting a roommate would be a good idea or maybe suspending college for one year so I can get a full-time job. I don't know, the whole idea of moving out freaks me out and it's just too much to take in, but something needs to be done about it sooner rather than later. |
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| Y ahora dale sin miedo hasta que se rompa el suelo |
[Jun. 29th, 2008|11:59 am] |
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| | Wisin y Yandel - Ahora Es | ] |
I know a sound like a fucking broken record but Wisin y Yandel are the best thing to happen to the music industry in a long time. Here's a very yummy pic of Yandel:
Pride was a lot of fun, never imagined it would be such a massive event. Problems are at an all-time high in my life but I'm too lazy to even consider solving them. The funny part is that I do have the motivation right now in my life to change for the better, maybe I like my comfort zone too much or maybe I'm just naturally lazy? |
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[Jun. 26th, 2008|07:55 pm] |
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| | Wisin y Yandel - Ahora Es | ] |
So I'm in debt, and my scholarship still can't come through because of bureaucratic crap. I don't want to ask my parents for money because they're the kind of people who always rub in your face the favors they've done for you. I can work extra hours but man I really need some time off, I'm tired of having zero free days because of work, school and my dumb internship which is a little less than halfway done. The fucking scholarship would solve all my financial issues but it will most likely be delayed for at least another month, so yeah, extra hours it is! There goes my fucking summer.
And on a completely unrelated note, I've been with my boyfriend for a month now. He's really awesome and I have strong feelings for him but I don't know...my female intuition (lfr) is giving me a warning sign about him. He used to be VERY promiscuous in the past and he openly talks about it which is better than concealing it I guess, but you know what they say "once a lion, always a lion". It's not pretty to always be wondering what he might be doing when he's out in the club at night, "is he really behaving himself?", "what if he's hooking up with someone right now?", "am I really important enough for him to change his old ways?". I guess I shouldn't worry too much because he really is amazing when we're together, but it would really suck if I get hurt again.
And on another completely unrelated note, Wisin & Yandel should be kings of the world and I mean it. "Pam Pam", also known as "3 minutes and 47 seconds of sheer perfection" is by far the best spanish song ever known to mankind. They have countless other masterpieces such as "Ahora Es", "Noche de Sexo", "Paleta", "Yo Te Quiero" and the list keeps going on and on and on. Your life is not complete if you don't listen to them at least once a day so everybody start completing your life right now! |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2008|10:10 pm] |
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So I have a boyfriend! And it's all been wonderful so far. The problem is that I'm not out to my family yet so I have to introduce him as a friend when he comes over and stuff. My mom is starting to ask a bunch of questions like "why does he call you everyday" and "why do you always have to walk him home" and all I can do is stay silent which I'm sure only arouses her suspicions more.
I think it might be time to come out to the family, but something tells me it's gonna be a very painful process. Ugh. |
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